Trying some new dyeing experiments to create mixed colorways in one batch - see if you like some of the results below:
Additionally, flower yarns are still calling to me and I've been making felted flowers, insects, fruits, etc to add to some fun new yarns. Here are a couple of examples of these as well as a few long locks hand spun yarns (the locks are 14 inches long - just amazing!)
Well, yesterday was my only child's 41st birthday. I hope he is well and happy, wherever he may be. The day he was born I was so in awe of this little fellow in my arms with his big dark eyes and serious expression. I never knew how it was possible to love anything in this world more. He was a sweet and loving child who, when he was four, told me he had "wandered around the cosmos and chosen me for his mother again..." We had some rough financial times when he was little and I essentially raised him as a single mom. There were lots of challenges and I know I made lots of mistakes but no one could have loved a child more. As he became more influenced by outside voices and the material aspects of life, he seemed to find me sadly lacking. I was not beautiful, rich, thin or influential enough for him. After he graduated from Berkeley, he moved to New York City. At that point, he began to change in ways I still cannot comprehend. Eventually, he told me "I had done nothing of any value for him in his life" and stopped talking to me. This has been about 8-9 years ago.
During the interim, my health has seriously gone downhill and I find myself in a wheelchair most of the time and also have kidney disease which is definitely not fun. Despite all of this, I still am able to do things that I love which include spinning, knitting, crocheting, dyeing as well a little garden dabbling. These things have been major blessings which fill my life. I also have a husband who loves me dearly and tries so hard to take good care of me even though he has his own challenges (having had a major motorcycle accident which has left him brain injured.) I have come to terms (most days) with the prospect of never hearing from my son again in my lifetime. It does not make me happy but that is where things stand.
How can someone who has been my greatest joy in life also be my deepest sorrow? I guess no matter what we do as parents is wrong but I did try. May all of you who have loving children rejoice in them.. Sorry for my sadness about this today but I just could not let this go unsaid as it has been weighing on my heart. I do miss my son.